Since my last post, I truly meant to post more often . . . but I have felt pretty “meh” . . . I’m just not ready to give my “ex” updates . . . and trial prep . . . but good grief that continues to be a frustrating process . . . an email from my ex the other week actually stated (completely quoting), “If I had money I would take you down for perjury, false accusations, and child abuse” . . . ummmm, yeah . . . needless to say, I didn’t engage in that email . . .
I’m struggling right now. While the prep for the trial is slow because crunch time doesn’t start for another few weeks, I am slammed at work and getting ready for my last year of law school to start.
The truth is, my atty, just sent me her required trial retainer . . . not a shock and quite frankly very generous given the circumstances, and I’m frantically trying to figure out how I can come up with the money over the next week. I have already burned through $1K that I gave her last month and nothing has been filed!!
In the meantime, all of my support network was essentially unavailable these past two months because of bar prep and exam . . . I never burdened them with what I have been through . . . now they are all calling offering advice, which while appreciated is clinical . . . my situation does not coincide with common law or statute quite frankly . . .total judge discretion.
And I’m slammed at work and trying to get my sh*t together for the start of my last year of law school . . .
I’m not going to lie . . . between work, home, trial prep . . . pretty much everything in my life, I’m so stressed out that I don’t remember the last time I got more than four hours of sleep in a night and that is just these past two months, when I didn’t even have a full work/school load.
I texted a couple of close friends this crude image I created through an app . . . this sums up how I have felt recently . . .
Sorry . . . just need to get out of my funk and move forward . . .
I have felt so discouraged about life in general . . .
I (hopefully) can post something more witty and positive soon . . . just not feeling it right now . . .
Not all days/months are lollipops and dewdrops. U will figure it out as best you can. I swear, I could wish some people or circumstances away, and one day I looked up and I usually did. I chose to control my happy. I cry, I laugh,mostly I live. Good luck on your motions, law school, work, motherhood and with all the other aspects that make up life in its imperfect, perfection.
Thank you! How are you holding up? What did you decide about law school? Hope you are doing well and thank you for your support
Oh, honey. I’m so sorry. You sound absolutely slammed right now! I wish that we lived in the same place (but I’m pretty sure we don’t…you don’t live in DC, right?), because I would totally give you a break by making you dinner or taking your son out for a movie or something. Anyway, I’m thinking and praying for you, which is not as tangible as be able to give you an extra hour of sleep tonight, but I hope it helps!
Thanks! I wish I lived in the DC area! Not entirely for the dinner or movie offer (which is much appreciated
) but also because I love DC. I have visited the area many times and love it . . . I stay involved in local and state politics and am a bit of a policy wonk so . . . DC is such a fantastic place to visit . . . not to mention all the historic sites. I plan to take my son there for a trip when he gets a little older . . . but I digress . . . thank you for your encouragement! I plan to get caught up on sleep in about 12 months . . . hopefully sooner than that . . .
Hi! I am new to the official “moms in the law profession” group, but I just thought I would reach out as someone who has gone through the divorce process. No advice. I just remember what it was like and hope for the best for you. Good luck on your last year of school!
Thank you for your kind words! Are you just starting law school?
Law school is difficult and with all that you are going, through it is highly commendable. I wish you luck and hope all goes well.
Hi Jenny,
Sorry for the late response but never received an email showing the comments. Just had an urge to go through your previous posts and viola. I am happily struggling through each day I think. I’m scheduled to relsat, if that’s even a word lol. As well as taking the gre in case I don’t get into law school fall 2012. So the question remains , what law school, if any, will do with me? I’m keeping hope alive:-)