Catching Up and (Minor) Confessions

I’m back . . .

I’d love to explain my absence with, “I’ve been so busy . . . blah blah blah” but that’s a poor excuse.  Yes, I’ve been busy . . . but heck, who isn’t busy!

The truth is I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching over the past couple of months.  I came very close a couple of times to deleting this blog all together.  The whole ex trial situation has had some significant and bizarre developments (more on that later), and I thought about scrapping this blog out of fear of discovery.  I met with a couple of friends who while I’m not super close with, know my identity and know about this blog.  They convinced me to keep it up.  They pointed out the obvious; nothing in this blog isn’t true . . . I think I was going through (and to a certain extent still am) how to handle a pseudo anonymous presence.

The truth is, the only reason I fear discovery is invasion of privacy by my ex or others close to him.  Yes, I realize this is a bit odd . . . I’m blogging my feelings and experiences to people I have never met, but having someone who has seriously hurt me in the past discover this blog made me almost run.

I also am going through a bit of a career crisis . . . there’s a good chance I’m going to make some bold moves in that area in the next year.  This is something I really want to share but I’m still figuring out how to do this without it biting me in the arse later.

Bottom line, I think I’m hitting that moment of realization that most law students do when they begin their final year, the question of . . . what next?  A year from now I’ll be getting my barzam results . . . what will I be doing and what path will I take?

I started so many posts the other month . . . they all fell flat.  In the past, I used to have a “start of the semester” blog where I essentially blew “sunshine up my a$$” talking about how it was a fresh start and I was REALLY looking forward to my classes . . . those past posts embarrass me a bit.

The truth?  I am so READY to be done!

And this blog?  I’m going to keep it up and I’m going to post more moving forward.  During my absence, I caught myself thinking of this blog almost daily, mentally planning what I would post . . . regardless of whether anyone reads my posts or not, this blog is part of me and something I want to continue.

So I’m back . . .  :)

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